Being pregnant again has my worries and fears coming to life. It brings back memories of when Matthew was born. I feel like because of my fears, that is why I have waited so long. Matthew was 28 weeks when I had him and Im almost 23. Every week I get closer to that scares me. They have me on progesterone shots that I have to take once a week. I just pray that they will work and every week I get past 28 weeks will be a miracle. I just hope I go full term. I really want to hold my baby after she is born. That was the worst part about when Matt was born is not being able to see him. Just them rushing off with him. First time I saw Matt was a picture Pete took on my cell phone because I still had the epidural and they wouldnt let me go. Not the most typical situation. I am happy he is healthy though. He has grown so much and such a big kid and so loving and incredibly smart. I am so happy to the point we are at. He has been in the hospital every year up until this year. What a milestone! I know its weird but dealing with a baby that gets sick all the time is so hard. I know everytime he gets sick its stressful. Its amazing to me how I got through it. The lord surely helped me during those times. I will be forever in his debt for blessing Matt how he has.
As for me and Pete, we are going strong. This September will be 6 years!! I cant believe it has been that long. We have been through some pretty tough times. But I have to say, I love him more now than I did when we got married. He is very sweet to me. He is very understanding and puts up with my mood swings. ( Im sure the pregnancy hormones make it worse) He is even kind enough to give me those shots every week. He has seen me at my worst, that is for sure. I couldnt have asked for a better person to understand me. And he is the best dad in the world. Well signing off for the night. Will be better at posting.
